Laughlin, Nevada – I’ve been to the Golden Nugget.

“So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future.

The very basic code of man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experience, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have new and different sun.”

one “must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy. But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty” – Alex Supertramp “into the wild”

a ball of mess. unstring this.

The thoughts of a surfer

The thoughts of a surfer

Here am I, by the beach
Trying to shed a tear for the worst phrase; searching for a light in the darkest tunnel.
Is it me or the society that is ruling my mind?

Here I am, siting by the beach, looking at the powerless sea
Little or no waves is the worst condition for a surfer.

A dark surfer dude looking at the waveless sea, waiting to indulge in his fun in those tiny waves.

I wonder why he is wasting his time. There is no fun. Why did he still wait for the moment to surf in this pointless sea?

I am like the surfer; waiting for the right time. But when will the moment be here for me? It feels like a fruitless wait.

Where is my drive? My motivation? I cannot wait….

Directionless

the weekdays are over… the weekends arrives.

i’m happy yet sad whenever each weekend arrives. happy because i get to spend my time with my friends. sad because it means the new week is beginning soon. I’m starting to believe that every good side of life has its bad side too.

every free time i have now would mean that i’m wasting precious time. Feeling guilty.

i wish i could just relax and while my time away until i get my “perfect” job. but everyone around me seems to give me this indirect pressure to start contributing to the society by means of this four letter word: W-O-R-K. I will try not to be affected by any of it. But it’s a constant struggle within me and the environment.

I remembered Eleanor’s story about the boy who wants to know what happiness is. He went to the king and  was tasked to explore the palace with a teaspoon filled with oil without spilling it. In his first try, he had this sole objective in his mind: To keep the oil in the teaspoon. He succeeded but the king asked him if he manage to notice the wonderful surrounding of the palace; he failed.  In his second try, he focus his energies on enjoying his surroundings but spilled the oil on his return.

The oil in the teaspoon: My personal growth and my family & friends. The surroundings: The distractions that makes me “wow” yet distorting my visions. example: Enjoying life too much… (is that a sin?)

Balance. Balance. Balance. It ain’t easy.

life is a double-edged sword.

P.S I can never understand recruitment newspaper ads. Why isn’t there any recruitment section for fresh grads??? *am i blind or what?*Every single ad wants experience! wth… how to have experience if there’s no chance to gain experience.

Picture speaks a thousand words.

As said.

More trips & shopping ahead! =)

The West Coast

one more month and i’m off to “journey to the west” coast!

I’m going to cover these places:

1. Grand Canyon – One of the 7 wonders of the world

2. Back to Vegas *yeah baby* bring me the money

3. San diego whee~

4. The OC. Yes.. THE OC. Orange County, California.

Disneyland and universal studio here i come!

5. Los Angeles. BIG HOLLYWOOD SIGN!

6. Hongkong! DIM SUM AND MORE DIM SUM!

7. HOME SWEET HOME! SINGAPORE!!!!!

Time flies so fast. Soon, i’m going to hit 23! GAWDLY!

so many things to accomplish but so little time left.

I have yet to reached all my goals in 5 years.

all i need is some discipline and perseverance.

pulling her back to reality

Weathered the worst storm in her life,  there comes a whirlpool.

a whirlpool – a small tornado that sits in the ocean; seems to drag her down to a place where troubles are brewing.

she saw a blurry image… red and round: a lifebuoy waiting to be grabbed.

Intuitively, she grabs the buoy and gasped for air.

Trying to straighten her thoughts, her only thought was to recollect her thoughts.

Now, she’s all composed and someone pulls her up on the boat.

Keeping the commotion out of her mind, she concentrates in her thoughts; why was she caught in the whirlpool.

distractions and temptations… the only words that popped in her mind.

time to move on, time to refocus.

in 1 months time, she will embark into a whole new journey.

Everything’s the first

a emotional rollercoaster over the past 2 months has finally come to an end.

I grew stronger each passing day. Things i never thought i would experience in my entire life.

Money can not buy these experience.

The day i fell down and broke my wrist.. was a huge turning point in my life.  All it took was one accident to wake me up.

Humans are complex creatures – be it men or women. Most of us starts to appreciate things only when is lost. Everyone knows that we should always cherish what we have. But as ongoing daily activities comsumed us, sometimes we fail to grasp what we should cherish until it is lost. Our mind has limited capacity to capture things especially in this century where so much information is thrown as us.

Today, i decided to post something because it took me a lot of courage to move on with life.

i decided to move in with my boss and leave my friends. It was a hard and painful decision to do so and with my current situation. Long story short. I believe this is the best solution for me.

It was a last minute decision but i have to do what i have to do. A selfish move u could call it but one will understand if you undergo what i went through.

I only hope now that i could be strong to continue this journey and be safe.

Deep In Thoughts

What would you do if telling the truth causes you to lose something that is dear to you?

To tell the truth or hide the truth?

The hard face of life.

Endurance being tested

Things have been going smoothly so far. Got an job offer from my boss which allows me to learn a lot of things: a managerial job at a sake shop – a job that is different from those i undertook. i truly appreciated the trust my boss has in me. Now, she has just offered me that is going to change my lifestyle routine.

I’m faced with another turning point in my life.

i need some courage.

With patience comes with perseverance and endurance.

this trip has brought her so many experiences that one couldn’t imagine.

the joy of life;

the cruelty of life;

too many painful memories to remember;

and wonderful memories to cherish;

life has brought her this far to realize that she’s far more fortunate despite the hardship she went through. She only hopes that she can have the strength to go through this ordeal and look back proudly what she has gone through.

Life is too surreal.